The Hieros Gamos of Existence

      

By Kaliyani Sundari

Kaliyani Sundari Revelations through the renaissance of the Goddess In trying to break through the resistance within, that exists in-between the edge of the limited scope of my words, in contrast with the incorruptible sound frequency channeled through the music in me, I find myself continually fluxing in and out of duality in existential To-Be-or-Not-to-Be. A sort of Bardo* while in the flesh that comes and goes like waves in and out of my shores. So often I find myself in the twilight state that swings me from wanting to only exist in the non-dual bliss and peace consciousness. Desiring to step away from all identity bound concepts and positions and to live in the ecstatic fluidity of Rumi’s neutral field, of no right or wrong. This, I’m aware, I may bring as an ancient cellular memory, perhaps from past lives - as my South Node point with Neptune in my Mid-Heaven points out… At other times, I find myself warm in the fire of my awakened passion, choosing the full embodiment of conscious identity for evolutionarily inspired sacred activism; which in turn calls for me to wear my spiritually inspired ego identity, my co-creative “costume” and consciously dance to the music in this evolutionary play of Lila*. As I find myself still integrating this awareness, I realize it is my Soul’s renewed desire to incarnate again in a whole new sense, this time not to transcend my human nature, or ego, but to integrate it in full conscience. I see it more as an immanence of the divine in its feminine manifestation that invites me to highlight the ego’s magnificence in great service to evolution and inviting me to play! In this process, I can’t help but feel this to be a call, not only my own, but of our human evolutionary code, which in our current time is much intensified, as we sit at the edge of a revolution in conscience that will catalyze profound shifts in multiple dimensions and aspects of our current reality. The Sacred Feminine asks that we try and flip it all around and inside out, so that from this new vantage point we may integrate all its parts. Moving us into the soft space that melts all our hardened constructs into the liquid and fluid singularity of a unified field of consciousness. In accomplishing the first step, this complete shift in perspective in which we find ourselves now, She asks that we no longer hide and instead that we step beyond the cacophony of incoherent historical agendas that disempowered us and rise to the clarity of our own courageous hearts, to express that which is longing to be given a voice. Venturing beyond our age-old fears, for they are now only ghosts in the halls of time. To allow the dismantling of eons of false constructs to break our hearts is necessary to Free us from the delusions that once clipped our wings. Now ushering us to actively participate in stewarding the rebirth of a new, more integral, inclusive, holistic and loving paradigm for living by, sounding our authentic Soul’s voice as a means to synthesize this time-coded message. Possibly, I feel, an evolution from Descartes original perspective of, “I think, therefore I am”, to a new perspective of I am, therefore I create. We have come from a mind-master perspective to now, a Soul-master perspective. So many of us strive to thrive in the uncovering our purpose in life, not always fully realizing that this very purpose-finding, is the refinement of the small self in response to the Soul’s longing to serve as an instrument for the greater purpose. The authentic embodiment of our refined conscious ego, is our ultimate challenge and most prized contribution to this divine play. I believe, as a race, many of us are coming to experience through this planetary Sacred Feminine renaissance, that these apparently paradoxical choice points no longer need to collide, but be integrated in a tantric embrace. Requiring that we wear our chosen, or may we call it our destined “costume” of ego identity with much greater Soul awareness, and hop on this “train” of history-in-the-making, while wrapping the grace of the non-dual wisdom, in its folds. This is at the core of our ultimate Soul’s destiny, for choosing to live as an active conscious participant of the Via Positiva*, while embodying the Via Negativa*, is the ultimate yoking. She informs me that this is the real acumen of the Divine-Human saga. It is the Hieros Gamos of Soul existence, which we all consciously or not, feel a deep longing for. The Sacred Marriage of Soul and Flesh, Dark and Light, Wrong and Right, Day and Night, Woman and Man, Left and Right… Our next hard-edged collective hurdle is to let go of the tight shackles of age-old, subconscious and unconscious imprints, in order to evolve, not only spiritually but also to survive; as a species. And yet, to do it vigilantly, is paramount, more than ever now that we stand at the edge of our sixth mass extinction* event of the past half-billion years, (which unlike past known mass extinctions caused by natural events, the current crisis is almost entirely caused by us). She says our time is at hand, for from a linear timeline perspective, there’s not much room left for mistakes before we may lose our gifted home. The categorical question is “How best to accomplish this feat under such mounting pressure?” For many of us in the cutting edge of stewarding this shift in conscience, this calling to action is so strong that it gives rise to the warrior spirit in us, sometimes so strong that it requires us to ever attune to the core principle, remembering always that we are ultimately here to exercise our true ‘loving nature’ so as we do not derail from the harmonious outcome in the shortest and straightest possible path for the most effective outcome. Yet, how do we travel within this fierce loving, passion-fueled train of transformation towards the land of dreams, without setting our tracks on fire? Even though there’s no single-sized answer that fits all, (and it is also true that at times real positive change has come at the price of scorching heat that has left far too many singed, and wounded in its path). The middle way, as the Buddhist suttas so eloquently expound, and which I call the way of the Vigilante, is the path that allows us to continually move peacefully forward, in steady steps, with the least risk of the painful setbacks and the messy spillage of a train crash. To be a true Vigilante, is to be able to soothe our fiery passions with the cooling and steady stream of c.o.m.passion: The Conscious Overview of Maya fueled by Love in Action. This can only be attained through keeping constant witness; seeing it all from an elevated, far broader Spiritual perspective and goal, which calls the Vigilante into a practice. A ‘Soul Yoga’ of inquiry, interspersed with silence or a sweet dance amongst many “movements” within the flow of her/his own sincere divine surrender to his/her own loving nature’s inner wisdom. Uncovering and surrendering to our com-passionate calling and allowing the warm Spiritual fire of its creative impulse to guide us in defining our voice, is a fundamental first step. However, at the same time, as we gear up towards action, there’s a wise refinement that is paramount in mapping the potential traps, which are not there as a set up, but as a means to gauge our level of understanding of the true nature of our essential reality. For that, it is also preeminent that we can also develop from within, a healthy level of detachment from the outcome of our attempts, so as not to lose sight of our elusive “Golden Snitch”, our true alchemical crucible, and graduate in Wiz~dom. The Sacred Feminine teaches us that the stream that bends and flows steadily through the path of least resistance, mirrors to us the art of co-creating with all other elemental forces at play within this great mystery school playground, and for that we must become like water. Flowing at high speed at times, and yet, yielding to a boulder encounter and slowing down. Caressing and reshaping the rocks on its path as it bows down and curves around, respecting its placement and purpose. Then steadily finding its flow and regaining speed until the next bend where it may have to surrender completely and pool up onto a lake at some womb-shaped crater in the earth. There it may stay for a while, evaporate, freeze and overflow, and then again, continue its flow in response to the magnetic gravitational force that may lead it into the deepest crevices and darkest caves before it will ultimately deliver itself into becoming one with the great ocean. This gravitational pull is akin of the mysterious magnetic Shakti force that is Her creative power enfolded within us, awaiting full activation through our authentic compassionate creative expressions. Magnetism does not push, instead it attracts by virtue of its attunement to the vibratory frequency of the desired outcome: Loving Harmony. It is the peaceful passive way of the Heart-Soul essence as opposed to the will of the Mind-Body action. Mind you that this discourse is geared to the awaking ones, as it is those, and only those when reaching a critical mass point of consistent mastery, who will eventually create the antidote for the zombie land of our socio-economic system matrix, where this narrative often falls in deaf ears. Again, our self-mastery is the only key that can open the heavenly gates of our utopian dreamland. On the other hand, extreme detachment is bound to dampen the very heart-igniting Spiritual fire of passion that pushes us over our own edges towards com~passion in action; the very fuel that drives our soul’s purpose in the first place. When this fire is managed from a conscious state of attunement, let’s say to our Soul’s Essence, I like to call it, Fierce Love. This Fierce Love is the Blue Fire of compassion, and it is the very element of transmutation needed in order to catalyze the crucible for this alchemical collective conscious transformation. It requires that we not only keep vigilantly aware of the backdrop of our true Spiritual reality and Loving Harmony goal, as the primordial value and truth, but that we also realize that we have come here as incarnate beings, not to simply transcend this reality, but, while awake, accept and embrace the roles we play as an evolutionary contribution; a divine job placement in service to this divine cosmic play. We are here to impart and broadcast our authentic nature and the gifts bestowed in us, through us; so that in this collective exercise we may taste the real ecstasy of our true loving nature in freedom. I see it all as a divine task, a conscious experiment, a divine play of soul embodiment we agreed to participate in; where the next nexus point of evolution for us would be to simply step ever closer to a heaven-on-earth experience; call it what we may. Be it the Fifth or Twelfth dimensional octave jump; this is not as important as to begin with where we are. In this process however, once embodied in our purpose, we are bound to come face with two potential pitfalls. One that we get so engulfed in our role-playing, that we slowly forget about the backdrop of our spiritual source and original purpose. In other words, the greater purpose behind the ego identity purpose. This is the most conspicuous hindrance as well as the most crucial to master, because letting it go unchecked we may harness more fire onto our steam engines than is needed to keep this train on its track; thus setting us up for a potential disastrous derailing. Such derailing in turn, we especially cannot afford when our purpose is embedded in the overarching umbrella that covers all teaching role models, especially those within the spiritual-moral context. Such misstep, in our current fragile state, gives then the polar opposite of what we were trying to balance, even more reason to contest that it is not worth ‘waking up’ to the sound of our messy crashing and the spillage that will take even longer to clean up. It is a near-fatal drawback of sorts that accompanies the loss of moral support and renders one to ironically find oneself succumbed to the very sleeping-awake state we strived to inspire the world to awaken from. Our collective love embodiment in critical mass, ushered by the re- integration of the Sacred Feminine in our collective consciousness, is by no means a walk in the park. It will require a level of impeccability of our integrity that will challenge the most dedicated of our conscious travellers. This mastery draws a very fine line and it is not for the faint of heart. Nonetheless it IS the key to final liberation. Learning to balance this tight rope-walk is a graduating of sorts from our still unstable critical level of mass consciousness. The other potential pitfall is a subset of the former, in that it still depends on the other. As again, living our purpose and embodying your character in the play of Lila will require, no matter what we invest in creating, that we “take sides”, representing a cause, a view, a method, etc. So, in “taking sides” we may and almost inevitably will at some point step on some “toes”. Sometimes with not much consequence, but when we step on the toes of the still hibernating bears who may feel we are interfering with their own choice to continue to sleep away in a non-lucid living dream state, then we must prepare to be faced with a beastly roar! Free will gives us choice and all choices are fair game for as long as it doesn’t hurt another. Red pill or Blue pill is all choice and it must be respected. However, as a global community, we are painfully aware of how so many rusty age-old patterns of incoherency deeply rooted into our socio-economic and spiritual belief systems (otherwise referred to as dogma) that have been causing and perpetuating high levels of suffering, that if we chose to ignore, it will fly in the face of our most fundamental core principle of integrity; corroding the very fabric of our potential evolutionary nexus, and that, in time, will come back to bite us. To bypass this potential pitfall, we also need to fully embody the knowing and understanding that there are always two sides to every “coin”, many voices to any single song and infinite roads to one destiny. The Hieros Gamos of one’s existence does not need reactive defending (the fall into forgetfulness), neither will it require combativeness of an apparent opposite. It only asks that we trust that the simple authentic expression of our heart-felt com-passionate love in action, now giving birth to our most conscious creative forms, will alone inspire, give permission and catalyze the activation of these new evolutionary codes. As the Gnostics have said, I do believe the Sacred Feminine to be the Holy Grail carrier of the new codes, through which the once hidden treasures will reveal themselves in a collective mirrored singular expression that in miraculous way will bring Heaven-on-Earth so as to immanentize the eschaton.* By Kaliyani Sundari Kaliyani Sundari is a Spiritually Inspired Visionary and her commitment to the renaissance of the Sacred Feminine in our collective conscience is reflected in her work as a Recording Artist, Conscious Media Producer, author and facilitator of Sacred Circles. Visit Kaliyani at: kaliyani.com