When I am not in the present,
My mind is chugging and wallowing
with memories of the past,
Murakami says its the fuel
Burnt, to stay alive.
When I am not in the present,
and my mind is in fantasy
inevitably arising from
some past, a memory again,
burnt to stay alive?
Could I say it fills up
the emptiness of my present?
I fill up my emptiness,
Whether in watching a movie
or a reality show,
Whether in following
a Celeb on social media,
even loving children having fun,
or empathizing with anyone’s
story of pleasure and pain.
So why do I fill up my emptiness,
with memories, or fantasies,
or identifying with another?
Don’t they represent my own
Un-expressed sub-conscious
in different ways?
Even when I am in love,
Its because she expresses
Or provokes that deep part of me,
I am not able to access
within me.
Our most compulsive calling is
to seek out our Subconscious,
We fill up our life with it,
that’s the fuel, that keeps us alive.
ConsciousSanjay
February 2019
About the author: A corporate professional turned entrepreneur, Sanjay Desai’s true passion lies in stimulating evolutionary change. Through ConsciousLeap, he seeks to trigger the spark of consciousness, using the literary and arts media to engender self-reflection and self-awareness. Log on to https://www.theconsciousleap.com to know more about his latest endeavor and follow https://www.consciousleap.life for his latest writings. You can also follow him on https://twitter.com/conscioussanjay
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My mind is chugging and wallowing
with memories of the past,
Murakami says its the fuel
Burnt, to stay alive.
When I am not in the present,
and my mind is in fantasy
inevitably arising from
some past, a memory again,
burnt to stay alive?
Could I say it fills up
the emptiness of my present?
I fill up my emptiness,
Whether in watching a movie
or a reality show,
Whether in following
a Celeb on social media,
even loving children having fun,
or empathizing with anyone’s
story of pleasure and pain.
So why do I fill up my emptiness,
with memories, or fantasies,
or identifying with another?
Don’t they represent my own
Un-expressed sub-conscious
in different ways?
Even when I am in love,
Its because she expresses
Or provokes that deep part of me,
I am not able to access
within me.
Our most compulsive calling is
to seek out our Subconscious,
We fill up our life with it,
that’s the fuel, that keeps us alive.
ConsciousSanjay
February 2019
About the author: A corporate professional turned entrepreneur, Sanjay Desai’s true passion lies in stimulating evolutionary change. Through ConsciousLeap, he seeks to trigger the spark of consciousness, using the literary and arts media to engender self-reflection and self-awareness. Log on to https://www.theconsciousleap.com to know more about his latest endeavor and follow https://www.consciousleap.life for his latest writings. You can also follow him on https://twitter.com/conscioussanjay
Image:
https://www.pexels.com/photo/photo-of-gray-sneakers-1554613/
