Dying To Tell You

By Lisa Najjar

Michael Jackson – Man in the Mirror Chapter

What an awakening. Whew! This is nothing like what I expected. I don’t know what I did expect but this wasn’t it.

I just feel so tired. I am here in what looks like an infirmary. A place like a hospital. I am working on restoring my energy field and healing the parts of me that were damaged by the substances I used. I’m resting.

I am not even ready to look back on my life. It’s too soon for me. I am just happy to stay here. It was quite an interesting life and I feel like I would need more energy and strength to review it.

Here I am surrounded by the most beautiful beings. There is only peace and love and sweet energy here. It is … well, heavenly ?

Why couldn’t the earth have been like that? Why did it have to be so hard? I can hear some of you saying, hard? What was hard about YOUR life? You had money and success and adoration and literally anything you wanted. I can hear it, all right. And you would be right, I did have those things. But having things does not make a person happy inside. That was my problem, no inner joy.

I think my life started out that way. It’s kinda sad, really. It wasn’t any worse than a lot of others have experienced, but this isn’t a competition. I’m just sharing that as a youngster the way I perceived the world – and that is a very good way to say it – was that it was a very sad place. I wasn’t very happy inside as a child. That unhappiness just grew and grew over time.

The more I acquired the more I felt it. Having so much made me feel guilty. Like how could a person with this much stuff be so sad? It was getting hard to look at myself in the mirror. There were times I got angry with myself over this. I berated myself over this question, because, how could I? How could I be sad?

But here’s the thing, stuff doesn’t’ bring happiness. Neither tangible stuff, nor intangible stuff. Nothing outside of yourself can make you happy. Nothing.

They say happiness is an inside job - and is it ever! I am still not feeling it but at least I feel hopeful about attaining a peaceful state. I mean how could I not be peaceful, being in a place like this?

It’s so important that you don’t judge anyone. It’s been said that we shouldn’t judge even the so-called good, because we don’t know what’s truly inside of a person, how real what you see on the outside is, and the extent of someone’s path and challenges. It’s not anyone’s business to judge another. We shouldn’t judge anything at all, not as good or bad. There’s just no such thing at all, not here.

So, please, don’t judge me - or my life - or my choices. I was fighting my own demons all along the way, as you are. It’s just that you got to see me playing mine out. You don’t have a public audience staring at you while you go through your struggles. But that’s okay because it added to the growth factor for me. If I could go back, I would choose that same life, even as hard as it was.

There were so many good aspects to my life. It was a real drama, if you like dramas! It was never boring, that’s for sure!

I think everyone should focus on themselves and not on anyone else. There’s enough to look at right there. Each of us have plenty of work to do just on ourselves, I’d say.

I don’t blame any of you because I put myself in the spotlight and that was definitely the problem. I guess I wanted to walk my path while on display. That took some guts, I think. Hmmm…I never thought of myself as brave until just this second. Huh. I guess I was! That feels a little better.

Maybe that’s the key – just noticing and appreciating the better parts of ourselves. You know how we mostly focus on the negative aspects of ourselves? We beat ourselves up for those things? Well, maybe the trick is to look more for the parts that are positive and then highlight those. I know that’s easier said than done - is it ever! But this is sort of like an advice column here, from heaven. So I would say that that is a very good piece of advice, one I should have followed. But it’s never too late to “get” something and I just got something here: Notice what is right with yourself and highlight it. Spend more time on it, talking about it, focussing on it, even bragging about it would be better, in my opinion, than ignoring and denying it, while we beat ourselves up over the negative crap that we believe we are.

I should have done a little more spiritual seeking when I was there. It could’ve changed everything. I definitely identified with the body and the world too much, way too much. It would have been far better for me to have searched a little more for my spiritual identity. It’s too late, though, for that lifetime, but there is always the next. And thank God too, because how can anyone be expected to get it all right the first (life) time out? Or the second? Or even the hundredth!

If it’s about having fun - and I don’t know what the point of life is exactly, yet, but suppose it is - then I can see why we do it again and again and again. So we can have more fun!

As I see it from here, though, I didn’t have much fun this past life. So not sure what the point was. Hmmmm…that is what I hope to learn here. What IS the point? I am sure I will be educated up here but it would’ve been nice to have some direction while down there.

So when I watched what you were up to tonight (a spiritual event), I kind of regretted not doing a little soul searching while down there. Maybe had I spent a little more time seeking the “inner” happiness that your Brian spoke of tonight, I would have lived a more peaceful, fulfilled life.

Maybe that’s my message - but I don’t really feel qualified to give anyone messages or advice. I can only say what I wish I had done differently. If that has an impact on anyone reading, great; if not, that’s okay too. All of you will find your own way as you need to, like me.

Who cares if you do it all right (according to your definition of right, anyway). I think it’s designed so that we get lots of opportunities to try things out. So maybe it’s just okay, how things worked out for me. Maybe it’s just fine. I think I will go with that for now … I mean, what else can I say, since I am just speculating here. It’s like you and I have a conversation going here and I’m just processing things with you, while you type my words on your computer.

George [Harrison], was more together than I was. He had all the fame and fortune and everything that goes with it, but he didn’t neglect his soul. He found a good balance, it seems. He had it together, you might say. When I see him up here he seems like a holy man or something, in his white robes. I know you also see him that way, Lisa.

Lisa: Yes, that is exactly the way he shows up for me, too. I always have to strain my eyes to see if it’s him or Jesus coming towards me. Then he comes closer and I see it’s him.

Michael: Exactly. He does present just like that. I think he attained some kind of spiritual state down there. Or maybe he was that way before he took on the role of George Harrison, the Beatle, in that lifetime. Who knows?

I know that people down there are probably waiting for some profound - or at least interesting - words from me but I’m afraid I have nothing. I am just ordinary. Maybe that is the best thing I can offer - that I’m just ordinary. I’m nothing special at all - as the world would define special, anyway. But we are all special here. That’s the magic of this plane, everyone is the same, more or less, and yet we are each incredibly special. We are all loved and cherished the very same here. How nice is that?

An excerpt from Lisa Najjar’s book, Dying to Tell You: Channeled Messages from the Famously Dead.

Lisa Najjar, Court Reporter, turned Celestial Court Reporter. As an International Psychic-Medium, Author and Speaker, Lisa feels she is living her passion to help raise consciousness on the planet. She is the Executive Producer & Intuitive Consultant on the award-winning documentary What If? The Movie and Creator of What a Foot Believes, a spiritual comedy talk show. Lisa lives in California, offering workshops, events and private consultations word-wide.

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