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Fear
Hidden deeply somewhere
In your inner space
Is a black hole
That keeps sucking in
All the light
From both within
And without your
Whole selfhood, until
You’re infused
With darkness, with all the
Negative influences flowing
Violently through your body
Trembling, vibrating with hell
As most recent research reveals, there is actually
No black hole in the outer space
Fear Charges
Ever since they became erectus, &
Domesticated wheat, dogs and chickens, they have
Murdered almost all…
Destroyed numerous…
Poisoned every …
Altering the natural course of…
Rewriting the original codes of…
& even redrawing their own genetic maps…
As they keep moving everywhere
Albeit I have placed in loudest human voice
My repeated charges
That are ignored with repeated ignorance
Now for
Their next revolution to achieve
Happiness
Immortality
Deity
Via nuclear, ecological & scientific challenges (collapses?)
The Darkest Energy in the Universe: for Qi Hong
Is no other than fear, I well know that, but just
Cannot help feeling afraid you would turn away
From me the next moment, or become upset
With what I have to say, or refuse to answer my
Call, or remove me from your weixin list, or
Cut off all my links to your world before I
Weave your being into the fabric of my love, or
Show no more initiative in contacting me, or lose
Interest in me & my life, or become really fed up
With my word-service, or stop missing me
As your old flame, or fail to pass the secular tests
Of time, or withdraw your affection under
The pressure of guilt or gossip, or lock your
Self up suddenly within the cage of traditional
Values & moral concerns… yes,
I fear you
Would do all such things, one or another, for
Some or no reason at all; I fear you would not
Hold your love for long; I fear you would change
Your heart (again as about half a century ago
On the other side of this world); indeed, I fear
My ugly wrinkled face, shrunk statue &
Softened manhood would disappoint you; in
Particular, I fear you would stamp out my
Inspirations before I burn them into poetry; above
All, I fear you are never afraid of my fears about you
Bitten
Something keeps returning
To the heart
A little old fear, like a mosquito circling back
Again on a sleepless night – biting deep
Into your flesh each time
After you wave it away, as it makes
Every shapeless concentration of thrombosis
A summer devil, attracted by the blood
Enjoys driving away all nice & cool dreams
The heart pumps blood without stop
Often do you suffer insomnia, with
Your capillaries constantly irritated
By a seemingly innocuous vampire
